i start thinking things like, have i ever had true feelings for a man or was it just feelings of seeking/enjoying validation from the only people whose attention i thought mattered?
the extension of such thoughts are, of course, omg, have i ever had ~true feelings~ for anyone? am i capable? what do real feelings even mean? oh god feelings aren’t real, i’m not real, nothing is real
MY MOM HAS BEEN IN A BAD MOOD FOR DAYS AND I KNOW IT’S BECAUSE SHE HAS A COLD OR SOMETHING BUT I KEEP CONVINCING MYSELF THAT IT’S MY FAULT SO I’VE ALSO BEEN FEELING HORRIBLE FOR DAYS
pretty sure it’s been over a year now since i’ve had sex, what a bummer
OR EVEN KISSED ANYONE GOD
my friendship abilities right now include liking your selfies and thinking nice things about you a lot
lol i keep feeling like yeah i’m doing better wooo
but then i remember how i am terrified to see anyone i know who is not in my family and i’m like oh ugh wow that’s kind of not great or even functional at all
excuse me it was 86 degrees yesterday
i’m feeling a lot better today
i painted something for my brother which made me feel good, and my dreams last night ranged from funny to only a tiny bit disturbing rather than being like…. horrible to hellish like usual.
DAVEY JUST TRIED TO ATTACK MY DOG, WHAT IS WRONG WITH YOU DAVEY HE IS LIKE A HUNDRED POUND DOG YOU ARE LIKE ONE TWENTIETH OF HIS SIZE WHY ARE YOU TRYING TO PROVOKE HIM ARE YOU TRYING TO AVENGE YOUR SISTER IDK
1. Please Don’t Tell Me I’m Not Fat.
2. Please Don’t Assume I Hate My Body.
3. Please Don’t Make Fat Discussion About How Hard It Is For Thin People.
4. Please Don’t Concern Troll Me.
5. Please Don’t Tell Me How Fat You Are.
ugh i’m so weird about responding to supportive messages but thank you
oh my god i had a fucking dream that davey brought a cooked turkey into my bed
oh my god i had a fucking dream thAT I WAS HARRY POTTER AND WAS ABOUT TO MAKE OUT WITH DRACO MALFOY
i’m a mess and it’s really embarrassing at this point
TW i guess for dog biting/animals fighting/animals getting hurt/SI/skin picking/self-hate
i’ve had to use my mom’s checks to pay my rent for the last two months and i’m afraid my landlord is going to think that i’m not responsible and that my mom is paying my rent but would the truth make me look even more irresponsible because the truth is that i refuse to buy checks so i am making my mom transfer my money into her account and then i’m mailing him her checks, that is so much work that could be avoided by just buying checks, i am not an adult